Shuryana

BITCH

2010-05-15T09:20:00.000-07:00

been coughing and vomiting for the past 3 days .
having tonsillitis . check the image on Google yaw ! geli -.-
cn like anyone please entertain me ?
hahaha . kidding . im gonna be okay :)
gotta try to sleep now .
bbye ! :)

My Special One's

2010-03-11T07:41:00.000-08:00

im the only child to my parents .
20 soon tis april 23 .
wen i was young , we used to celebrate my birthday either at home , restaurant or bbq pit .
now as i grow much older , no more off tat . hahaha . i miss my abg aji . we used to exchange present :) . he's was on 24 april . been 16years i didnt get to see him . i miss him . tho i tot he was my blood abg . well , actually , he was just an anak angkat to my nenek . but , we've grown together .

but im lucky , to hav my two sisters and one brother wif me . tho they are just my cuzzy . i still treat them as my blood .

Md Harris , 16 this year . the irritating one :) wld always non stop bullying his sisters . but still , he nvr fail to protect them , even me . tho he's kinda rough but not even once he fight back towards his parents , not even once he "maki" his siblings . he can be selekeh at times . wif his kain . hahaha . looks like he's not really into girls tat much . idk luh . he's been the shy one towards my parents . "malu luh abg nak ekot korg je J.b " hahaha . but he did follow us . he's generous , he wld order for us macd , tolak me few stick of ciggy . btw abg , botak looks much more smarter on you :)

Nur Nadzirah , 14 this year . the smart one :) yeap , she's an express student . the one tat hav been giving me advice and courage towards everything especially smoking :) but still i cnt stop ! tsk ! she hav tis mancung nose ! that she may use it to cut her birthday cake . she's been the most helpful one . she wld always sleep over to accompany me . nvr fail to bring a smile on my face :) we wld always lepak , buy my fav chips wif her milk tea bottle , and non stop laughing , spying on Bangladesh ! haha ! she wld always irritated me by "eh ! jap ! mana hp adk ? jap2 ! ehhh , mana uh ! pfffttt kat sini ruper nye ." in a day , ermmm , ard 3 times she wld do tat ! silly girl. and yea , she understands me the most :)

Nurul Ain , 13 this year . the blur one :) hahaha . think of her can really make me smile . wif her muke sardin everytime wen she wanna crack a joke . wif her loud laughter ! wide smile ! hahaha . it reminds me of one of this vid we took in the lift . LOL ! and yea , i just love the way she garok my kepala ! damn SYIOK ! i can see her future :) (ameng) . she wld always irritated me by her STM ! always ehhh~ but i adore her eyes & hair her skin too ! she wld LOVEEE to garok her eyes like always . aftr garok2 like 2mins ltr "kak , ada eyemo tk ?" she's the one wld accompany
me staying awake everytime they sleepover my house .

i feel complete when im with them . i love you three <3 (mcm besok nak mampos lak ! ) hahaha

2010-03-08T09:36:00.000-08:00

IMYSM BLOGGY !

sorry ! for making you feel so lonly . haaha .

Im SOoOoOoO Happy ! i have my smile back with me .
seriously im the happiest LADY(da nk 20 kn ) IN THE WORLD !
dad's been great , da tk mara2 .
mom , biase jgk , wif her silly jokes
three cuzzy , PERFECT as ever !
HILMI , awwwwwwwww . *blushing* i just love him .

im just too happy , idk wad to post ! tadi mcm2 idea . now ! Prooff ! ilang ilao ! lols tata .

All I Hav To Do Is To Keep Silent .

2010-02-08T11:49:00.000-08:00

at times , things doesn't go like the way we wanted .
saying sorry doesnt always work .
its true that few days ltr that person may forget everything that happen .
BUT WTF if you do it again !? she cry again ? you say sorry again ?
stop blamming me when i get angry luhhh . who's fault was it ?
Till i called your house . and yea , you were soundly asleep :D
I just wish i cld just turn off my fking fone and make sure you cnt get thru me !

I ask you to leave me alone , but yea ! you keep on adding more and more salt to my goddam fking big deep wound !
told you not to piss me off but you did .
hello~ im spending the whole day alone in this house . ALONE ! A.L.O.N.E !
shld i give you this wake up call ? waiting me to fly off ??
cos you really think you hav your own time in this world .
come on ! once you step home , BOMB ! you fell asleep right infornt of your house gate ? im not dumb ! dont tell me i was not even in your mind went you were like lying down on your bed ? W.O.W ! thats how important i am you you huh ?

and yea , mum still nagging like one siamang cnt find her banana for like 1 week gitu !

im just trying to make myself laugh .
i wish im tired now , so i can just go to sleep , and forget everything .

dad still not talking to me .
planning going to kl this cny .
but .... he doesnt even talk to me .
grrr !
and youre leaving aftr cny . if you really gonna do it ...
im gonna leave everything .
including this house . mum .
i just need to hug someone .
a hug will do everything for me .
a hug always make me feel better .
i just need a hug .

this mth , February , so many stuff came up .
every single day tears falling down my cheeks .
i miss dzulhilmi .
its been 12 days i didnt get to see you .
i miss you , i really do .

2010-02-04T09:06:00.000-08:00

I gotta take a little time
A little time to think things over
I better read between the lines
In case I need it when Im colder

In my life there's been heartache and pain
I don't know if I can face it again
Cant stop now, Ive traveled so far
To change this lonely life

I wanna know what love is
I want you to show me
I wanna feel what love is
I know you can show me

I'm gonna take a little time
A little time to look around me
Ive got nowhere left to hide
It looks like love has finally found me

Give Up

2010-02-01T08:11:00.000-08:00

dad's giving up .
every single word came out from him hurts me .
why cant i just make him happy ?
like how i did in pri and sec .
ignore bout my frens , freedom , happiness , save my own money .
all i think was dad .
just look at him .
he was a perfect dad to me .
woke up 7am off to work . back at 6pm . continue going to work as a taxi driver at back home a 3am .
on and on .
even sat and sunday he's off to work .
dad , im really sorry .
i just be cnt be your perfect daughter .

as for you .
yea , you just did it .
"give up"

no one can see the pain i hav .
towards her father .
herself .
and you .

im lack of confident .
wish i hav someone to guide me .
to push me .
and not making me pissed .
by pushing me in sarcastic way .
how do you motivate me ?
that kinda way ? " lawls ? HAHAHAH ? come on yana ? pakai otak ? "
instead of " im here to teach you , im here to guide you . we'll go thru this together "
and wad ? "give up"

some one pass me a ciggy . im giving up too .

haish

2010-01-31T07:58:00.000-08:00

guess im all alone again .
im really upset .
sick , waited , hoping .
get nothing in return .
i'll be okae soon .
forgive and forget .
but still hurt inside .
haishh .

Unwell

2010-01-31T07:52:00.000-08:00

been sick for 3days .
ate all kinda of medic .
nthing seems to change .
too lazy for doc .
nak ddk kat kosi satu jam pon tkleh , mesti kene baring .
sakit pasal nk stop rkk . i really do .
getting older , need to think bout my inner body now .
my parents too .
dearest make a promise that we will stop together .
really feeling weak now .
waiting for dearest to online . so that he cn teman me .
really need him now . someone to make me smile atleast :)
okae luh . bbye .

You Dnt Noe Me Well Aftr All .

2010-01-22T11:00:00.000-08:00

giving advice .
show ppl wad love means .
ask them to stay strong .
hav faith .
talk nicely to your partner .
saying no prob cant be solve .

hah . look at me ? i myself weak at all this . gone thru too much lies , backstabbing , unfaithful .

what do you guys want from a lady ?
what do you need from them ?

a girl wld cry when you scolded her . and she wld cry when she scolded you too .
how much you break her heart she still there staying strong for you , for the love .
you said "i love you " she replied " i miss you " bcoz she needs you at that point of time .
you said sorry , she wld remain silent for few mins . wondering why ? she's crying . saying ily in her heart .
she ask for a break up , but actually , she didnt mean it . if she did , she wld be swearing you .
she says "i hate you " but wad really means was . i hate you for making me loving you this much .
if she really wanted a break up , she wont even be having a convo wif you , she wont reply to your text msg . she wld just ignore and do her stuff .
she wld starve herself just to see you eat .
she wld wait for you , till you get back home .
she wld just waste her money on you , just to make you happy .
she wld do anyting even get a scolding from her parents for you .
she dnt mind sneaking out at night take a cab come over to your place just to see you .
just to feel you . just to hug you . just to make sure you get every single thing you need in her . make sure you get enough attention and spend time wif you and your frens .

to me , i dnt give up in love . unless it involve a third party . doesnt mean i said break up , i really want it . but , if you agreed and left me .... i wont turn back cos you did leave me .

the one who really love me , is the one who noe me the best .

i wld be okae . i just need my two sisters wif me . i need their hugs . their shoulders to cry on . i really do .

FREAK !

2010-01-12T12:51:00.000-08:00

mum sleeping at living room . she dnt want me to go out mlm2 -.-
its not like im going clubbing or wad . lepak sia .
and now , i cnt even smoke in my room .
pasal mum will bau .
you guys.... really uhhh .
look . now im sick !
thnx to you both ! mum and dad !
its like 5am in the morning .
cnt even sleep this few days .
sakit peh pasal .
pening , demam , seme2 .
fking bored !
nk kua . tkd duit !
kat ruma for the whole 4 days ?!
tk turon bwh pon !
gado wif parents peh pasal .
PLS ! someone ! ajak saya klua !!!
tapi tkmo jauh2 uh ! haha !

2010-01-10T10:00:00.001-08:00

2010-01-10T09:42:00.000-08:00

Would you just listen and please don't say a word .
I'd like you to think back to the very first time we met .
How you felt around me ? The memories we shared .
And just remember that once upon a time, you really cared .

You were a special part of my life that I will never forget .
A part of my life that broke my heart, but that I don't regret .
You gave me some happy memories that I'll keep in my heart .

You weren't there when desperation and emptiness accompanied me .
Tears falling down , and no one around me .

I Need You , My Silly Boy .

Day Out Wif <3

2010-01-06T10:10:00.000-08:00

woke up 11am . nad woke me up by her call .
Den called dearest , he was at school aldy . jln2 carik class . haha
few mins ltr he called me bck . "aby , siap uh . ktr kua " hahaha .
nmpk sah da tk larat nk carik class . haha .
teros siap . met him at pair ris inter , den walk to downtown . dearest dpt gaji .
he cnt really save his own money -.- . nak spend je . we went bowling , me 3 game , he 4 game .
feeling2 pro luh dekni . nk try2 lempah curl . haha .
den , we go subway . tapau .
go makan at tempat laen .
mcm biase , dearest tk leh ddk bersila . found it funny and cute at the same time . hahaa .
den , we go tngk wayang . AVATAR 3D ! not bad luh . best jgk . paling tk suke , tat 3d spec . freaking pening sia wearing tat thing . jap bukak . jap pakai .
den , we go jln balek to whitesand . dearest wanna buy his school bag .
and yea . the whole day he spend his money on me .
kinda not fair tho . not used to it . i wld just lie if someone wanna spend money on me . tk kira aper luh , makan or wad . tk biase . wish i cld hav ard 30bucks on my wallet tadi . can buy for him another school bag . but , ppfftt ! i only hav 10bucks . gado ngan ibu -.-
den we balek .

at times , i just cnt stop looking at him . his silly looks . laughter . smile . or just sitting beside me reading newspaper in the bus . i wld just stare at him . wish he cld fell my heart . wish he cld hear wad my heart trying to say . wish he cld feel my heart beating faster wheneva he hold my hand .

we do argue over stupid stuff , fights , misunderstanding . well , which couple dont ? its normal tho . i do get angry , pissed off , sad , terrified , cried , till my mom keep knocking on my door . haha . but knw matter wad , he shld noe that im not leaving . i need to face all this , learn my mistake and take a new step again . we hav a life time together :D
"tengs pho evali tengs" (thanks for everyting ) dearest . i cherish every moment wif you .

Hopes

2010-01-04T08:55:00.000-08:00

there this one kind of feeling im having now .
no idea what it is yet .
i felt like i was trapped in those terrifying nightmare .
But this aint a dream .
my heart is like giving up in everything .
schools , jobs , emptiness etc .
i just simply don't know .
i need that special magic in me bck .
i miss everything .
i really do .
im like one rotten human at home doing nothing but to do housework and get worried bout stuff .
i need my happiness back .
mum , pls stop saying bad stuff bout me to our relative . i dont like it . no one do .
and dad , i miss you .
hilmi , i've been loving more each day passes by .
i need you to be with me , accompany me .
be my friend , bestfriend , brother , dad & a husband .
you're my only hope to make me smile every single day .
you're my only hope to feel im needed in this word .
Dearest , im trying to save something . something precious .
Im mad bout myself .
Cried badly till my lungs gonna burst .
It gave me this excited feeling everytime i get to meet you .
And yet it gave me this loneliness feeling when i had to go home without you with me .
I get worried .
Hope i wont lose you .
I'll pray for you , me & us .
I always do .
I Love You , Dzulhilmi .

Speechless

2009-12-22T18:02:00.000-08:00

By Posting This , Hope You Can Guess What I'm Trying To Say .

2009-12-17T01:12:00.000-08:00

TADAAA !

Miss Me ? 4mth ? 5 mth ? dusty blog !

okok . make it ALIVE again . its 5.13pm . one word "MENDAK" .
ard 6 dearest gonna go out , working wif abg . his abg . lols . i dont own a abg .
mayb ltr going out wif family . waiting for my dad back from work .
Going KL soon . shld i say YEAY ?! -.- haish . bukan nye dpt belanja pon . we will see .
This time im gonna shop like a freaking girl who hav nvr shop before ! AMEK KO ! dad ! nak KASOT ! FAVOR ! bukan mintak last mth , bukan last last mth , bukan last year . BUT 4 YEARS BEFORE ! can i hav it now ? pls ? pretty pls ddy ? W !

Going out wif dearest tmrw . mayb azrie gonna tag along too . AND YEA ! yesterday ! NEWS , saying , some part of the country having flood , some part are drying without water , and ICE are melting ! arrghh ! okae . dont think too much ...................................................... TAUBAT !

what did i do eh the whole day ? errmm . woke up at 7am , den baring2 tertdo balek . den woke up at 10.30 . den mandi . text dearest . den surf net . till 2pm . makan jap . den watch tv sambil lipat baju . den baring kat hall wif mmy . den vacum rumah . den here i am !

k luh wanna end it here . tata !

2009-11-04T08:50:00.001-08:00

gonna delete this blog for the mean time .

24hrs !

2009-10-26T08:50:00.000-07:00

Jyeah ! tk tdo lagi .

Da 2 hari . Gosh !

Wassap wif me !

Pagi2 bby nia online . We chat on msn kejap . she was in skool .

den ard 10 or 11 gitu , adk nad online . we on our webby . took some silly pic !

Dua2 lom mandi ! Lols ! so dont mind our muke busok . hah !

den we chat2 smpi kul 3.30 . den i go mandi . go to their house . nak tdo peh pasal .

donnoe why ruma dorg mcm senang nk tdo . lols .

so yea . adk help me to sleep , by tepok , urot2 kepala . and DAMN ! i really fell asleep ! WoOoO !

den terbangon pasal heard my uncle pekik ! lols . den . abg harris balek .

dier peh sardin ! "kak , abg beli ijau tau . merah n choc tkd . " mak dier kat depan mata ! i wen 0.0 !

haha ! silly adk sedare ! so yea . den we turon lepak jap . isap rkk . gave ada 2bucks for making me sleep ! hah !

korg nk jugak 2 bucks ?

or nk lebih ?

hah . sila dtg ke uma saya . dan tepok saya hari2 :D

haha .

and yea . here are some of the pic i took .

wif my silly adk sedare .

ada lagi ! but , semua kat adk ! ltr i ask frm her aite !

tata ! :D

Just That ..

2009-10-09T07:39:00.001-07:00

It was hard trying myself to change you .
You were that harsh guy .
It was hard on me . How you scolded me . Using harsh words .
i cried . nvr in my life a guy said all that to me . and yet i wonder . why i still love you .
it really hurts . it takes alot of patience . saying myself . " if you do love this guy , and wanna spend all your life with him , just be patience . "
and i did . till today .
i was really surprised . that i can take all this . i wasnt this kinda person who wld take this big challenge .
i guess its love .
today , i almost made it . i really did . that harsh guy have change to someone sweet , caring and loving .
but , he hav change alot till he didnt notice 1 things . The old him that nvr fail to make me laugh . the first mth we fell in love . Wld always online , chatting , playing games on msn . Go somewhere everyweek . bowilng , movies , otf . texting . he didnt noe wad i nid all this while . he forgotten . he really did .

God , thanks for everything . I love him . Make It Happen again , will you ? "Dzulyana"

i just need him . only him .

That Feeling .

2009-10-07T10:58:00.000-07:00

aku makin penat .

aku tk tau kenapa .

mungkin da terlalu bnyk saba .

aku takot .

freaking worried .

he's my everythings .

I love him .

but ...

im scared tat i might get hurt .

oh god !

2009-09-29T10:51:00.000-07:00

FUCK UP WITH YOU !

YEAY YOU !

For You

2009-09-25T05:13:00.001-07:00

Aku Tak Muda Untk Jatoh Cinta Pada Yang Laen .
Hanya Kau Yang Aku Ingin Bersama Hingga Akhir Hayat ku
Dalam Hati , Ku telah Tanam Kan Nama Mu .
Inginku Melihat Ia Berbunga .
Beri Kan Lah Cahaya Agar Ia Membesar .
(Omg ! Aper lagi eh ! LOLS)

senang kata la ! I LOVE YOU DZULHILMI !
my melayu poem tk bagos ! but i did try ! :D
nnti me fikir , me sambong kays !
and yeah , thnx for the treat and THE SLAP ON MY HAND ! Its Still Freaking RED HOKAY !
sizer ,papeh , ton ! WoOoOoO ! haha
wadeva happens , im gonna be wif you . Cause you're part of my life .
each and every seconds my heart calls for you .
You will nvr Noe Hw Much i Love You . And You Wont Noe How Much I Need You .
The Only Thing You Noe , Im Your Tembam ! KAN ! Grr !
text Me Once You Are Done Reading This aite !

Happy Anni Dearest !

2009-09-25T04:08:00.001-07:00

Selamat Hari Raya !

2009-09-21T05:21:00.000-07:00

WoOoOoO !

Baru balek Kampong ! Penat Nk Mampos ! Da La Nk Pegi Ruma Ke Ruma Take Up To 1 1/2 HR ! Tk Mcm Siak ! Grr !

Yg Best Part , Ktr pegi ramai2 . 7 kete ! woo ! tu baru sikit ! ada bnyk lagi tuu ! babi tol part go to nenek adk nye ruma kene kacau . lol ! dlm 12 budak lelaki kat atas , i was kat bwh , baru kua kete . dorg semua pusing strt ah ! WeeWit ! zz ! bpk aku muke da laen ! my dad said . " ko da mcm artise ! " . adk said " biase luh , mat msia , tk pernah nmpk AWEK spore !" hahha . jakon nk mampos . nanang makin gemok sia ! he's age 22 . TAK mcm 22 pon ! fitri , he's 19 . muke da mcm 25 . lol ! bibik wif her gigi ! ya allah ! SELEKEH bibik aku ! and yea , my atok n nenek . really open up my eyes wen i seek for forgivness . They said :

Nenek : siti , nenek da tk lama lagi nk pegi . nenek da tua . jaga la ibu ngan ayah betol2 . jng lawan kata2 dorg . carik lelaki yg betol . carik lelaki yg bertanggung jwb . yg hormat ibu bapa , yg berugama , yg tau solat , yg tau jaga hati dan maruah ko . mungkin nenek tk dpt tngk ko kawin . *hug n kiss nenek*

(air mata da berkumpol)

Atok : siti , da besar skg . bunga da bole dipetik . carik kn ayah ngan ibu menatu yg baek . tok tau , siti mesti da ada matair skg . kekal la dengan dia . dier hormat ibu bapa dia tk ? solat tk ? ada jatoh maruah ko tak ? tau jaga hati ko tk ? ingat pesan atok yg ni je . bole tk dier jaga siti dan anak2 . carik lelaki yg tk malas . jadi dier tk malas untk carik kerja . carik lelaki yg bole bantu siti buat keje ruma . carik lelaki yg BERTANGGUNG JWB ! (part ni da nangis) carik lelaki yg slu pegang JANJI ! jng smpi buat siti menangis . (part ni mata da mcm air paip) Carik lelaki yg tau hormat ko . carik org yg penyabar . tngk lelaki2 skg , gangster , tattoo , tindak sana sini , sebat2 org . tu semua tk bagos ti . dlm hidop ni , bnyk la bersabah . dngr kesabaran siti . insyallah , siti dpt apa yg siti nk . *hug and kiss atok*

panjang kn ! sakit lutot aku ! peh lama dier nye bobal . and btw , im only 19 ! menantu2 semua da kua ! all i can think of bile atok n nenek bobal pasal menantu , was him and only him . bila nk balek naik kete , nenek hug me SORG ! crying . wonder why . dlm kete i cried again . fikir2 kn wad my grandparents hav told me bout menantu .

gtg .

Love

2009-09-07T10:05:00.000-07:00

The couple that fights the most is the one most in love... it shows they care enough to notice the other one screwed up and care enough to mention it to the person so they can fix it. When you stop fighting it means you stopped caring

Well dek , you heard this before kn . yea , its kinda true :D

Balek Kampong

2009-09-05T04:47:00.000-07:00

This Year Nak Raya Kat Kampong Bole Ayah ?

Miss The Fun luhh .

Haish ...

PLEASE LUH SIA !

GRR !!!

...

2009-09-03T15:51:00.000-07:00

mcm tk kesah gitu kn .

ahhhhh

2009-09-01T17:36:00.000-07:00

AH ! puase tk korg2 ?

ktr puase ! awak ?

tapi niari ktr tk puase . cuti. :D hehehe

not bad ehh dearest really puase ! (jng dier bedek suda) lols ! nah i trust him . :D

its like 8.39am in the morning . biase jgk . tk leh tdo . wont sleep i guess .

3pm need to be at bedok POLISE STASION ! LOLS ! bored*

make some cookies ! Freaking SEDAP !

tk caya tanye adk n bby ! LOLS !

ktr buat ramai2 . :D

nnti nk buat lagi !

wooohoooo !

mampos ! raya coming !

mcm2 nk kene beli nii ......

bag ! kasot ! make up ! barang2 for rambot ! wooo !

abisss ayah !

and SILLY BOY ! MISS KAMU SIAAAA !!!!

ARGH !

puase peh pasal . saba yana . tak elok jumpe . TERbatal kang puase !

okok !

tu je .

bye2 all !

God , I Need You

2009-08-30T15:29:00.000-07:00

6.30am 31 aug 2009

weak . is all i can say .

mummy , i love you .

daddy , i love you .

Dzulhilmi , i love you .

kau tercipta untk ku .

mummy

2009-08-30T09:56:00.003-07:00

mummy , i did everything for you .
cover stuff for you
look at how you take advantage of me
haish . ily

I Will

2009-08-05T22:15:00.000-07:00

Its hard when they seems to be disagree .
Bother me alot .
We cant go any futher without them .
I will do wad i hav to do
Atleast let me try .
Coz i love him
His my everything
Pls open your heart .

Grr !

2009-07-19T10:56:00.000-07:00

ard 6am plus , texted adk . ajak her lepak . lols .. pagi2 buta ! she said mit her ard 7.30 . dier nk tdo jap . so i waited . smpi AKU yg tertdo . woke up ard 9 . adk texted me . BABI ! hp rosak ! tk leh reply . so i just buat bodo . sorry dek , da bingit . KIK i was SUPER NOISY this morning ! ya allah ! mcm nk lempah dier kat tembok ! saba je . layan kiki for like 4 hours smpi dier penat . atlast tdo ! babi ! aku lak yg tk leh tdo . ard 6 , went out wif parents , plaza singapura was where we had our dinner and went to spotlight as MOM wanna buy some stuff . den go hougang point . went to buy kiki's food . MAKAN MCM BABI ! da gemok sia dier skg . mom la nie .. jap2 kasi mkn ! Grrr ! took some pic today . wif kiki and myself .. and yea , dearest just called , text him mcm nk gila , atlast baru bangon tdo ! Silly BOY ! Now he go MACD ! WTH ! he bully me , by saying " me nk gi mac jap , nk beli snack warp , mc spicy , choc sundae , fries , yg lembik2 . lembik2 taw , lembik2 sekali ." i was , All the way , ahhh , ahhh , okk , okk . dier peh motive , NAK KASI MOII LAPAR KN ! yg part tk leh terima "lembik2 taw" grrr !! when was the last time i ate fries yg lembik2 ? Grrrrr !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WADEVA LUH !

bye2

2009-07-16T12:01:00.000-07:00

Things That Are Not Mean To Happen , Just Happen
Its Getting Worst .
Im Getting Scared .
God , Please Lead Me To The Right Path .

Us

2009-07-15T11:21:00.000-07:00

Take Me SomeWhere I've Never Been

whats wrong ?

2009-07-14T11:57:00.000-07:00

Cant really get to sleep this few weeks.
Not been sleeping at night
I would sleep at 7 in the morning , and wake up at 9-10
i did try to do stuff to make me feel tired so that i can sleep at night
as in making poem , helping my mum on housewrk ,been washing toilet everyday ,
taik kiki peh pasal ! haha ! as you guys noe , my family , pembersih ! lagi2 my mom ! kotor sikit je ... SITI !! asal NIE !!haha ! die ! lols
well , aftr doing all those , AND YET STILL ! cant sleep !
drank hot milo at night , dngr lagi slow2 ! -.- (hate that)
suro kiki tdo lua .. mcm2 .. still cant ! asal nk tdo je , PIKIRAN DTG !

Dearest
myself
money
parents
life
BITCH !
friends ?

mostly , its more to life, dearest and BITCH !

i cnt continue anymore ..

da la mata sebelah rosak !cant see a thing ! I REALLY HATE TO WEAR SPEC !smpi bila nk pakai contact lens !zz
Grr !
KIKI NK BERAK !
bye2 !

kiki

2009-07-12T07:03:00.000-07:00

KIKI

Bising
Hyper
Manja
Irrtting
Loves to Punch Me
Loves To Bite Me
Kuat Merajok

You ? Or Me ?

2009-07-08T02:18:00.000-07:00

The times we were happy together are worth the times I cry alone and It's amazing how someone can break your heart and you can still love them with all the little pieces ..

2009-07-07T12:34:00.000-07:00

its just that i love you .. i do everysingle thing for us .. why cant you see that ?
and i being to over protective ?

dear , i just want nthing to come between us .. dont want things to be too late ..
ily

2009-07-01T14:45:00.000-07:00

hey , since been a long tyme not updating my bolg , sorry peeps ..

recetly , got my hair reborn .. and dearest called me BAWANG -.- ! DAMN YOU UBBY !

hahaa ..at last ! mommy get to meet ummi (ubby's mommy) kinda funny looking back when his daddy was peeking on me .. i was wif my dad wen he was syping on me , mayb he tot my dad was my bf ?? LOLS ! strangers do say that wen they saw me and my dad walking side by side thinking we are couples .. haha ! da biase !

trying to find myself this few days .. as in my attitude .. i admit ,i've change abit somehow .. gonna get that SURIANA BACK! dont wanna hurt people whom i love .. it really sucks ! to be the only child ! damn sucks ! So peeps ! DO MORE SEX when you get married sooner or later ! HAHAHAHA !

Parents ,Dearest & Cuzzy whom i really love most .. this few days .. idk why , my heartbeat .. strting to pump really damn fast,da nk mampos ke ? okok ! i NOE ! i shld stop smoking ! yea yea ! stress2 how to stop sia ! must be wondering, aper yg nk di stress kn ...BNYK LA SEII ! mls n malu to list all down ..

btw ,im sorry for wad i did all this while to you guys .. you noe who you are .. i made a mistake, n i cnt even forgive myself.. i will change bck ! i HAVE too.. PROMISE !

To dearest , mcm nk gila fikir kn pasal you ! kalau you tk paham aper me nk ckp .. i rasa you pon gila ..NVR hav i LOVE someone THIS much ! at tymes we were rough , maki bnyk , tumbok2 bnyk , sepak2 bnyk .. hahaha ! rabak ehk ! but .. i dnt really noe to explain this .. all those will make a memories for us .. hahaha !TAPI ! tu semua kene KURANG KN ! mampos kalau da laki bini nnti ! woooo ! dnt wanna be that kinda wife and mommy !BAD BAD BAD example ! i have nvr told ya wad kinda guy i really want kn .. let me state some .. (so wad kalau you tk nk tau pon , nie bilang jurr ) hahaha ..

looks ? FUCKING NOT IMPORTANT ! kalau hensem ,tk smpi brp bulan da kene tinggal, pasal da dpt pompan lagi lawa
attitude ? someone faithfull , trustfull , understnding , gentalmen , respect , attentive & NOISY !
body type ? PI MAMPOS ! dnt even care , ATI MAU BAEK !
eyes ? DzulHilmi eyes is perfect . :D
lips ? ANITA SERAWAK PUNYA LUH ! hahahha ! (saper percaya , dasar BENG)
hands ? someone who wont let go of me where ever we go..walking down the stairs ,walking ard shopping mall , CROSS THE ROAD IS A MUST !
legs ? the leg of tecktonik ? LOLS !
laughter ? THAT NYARING voice !
touch ? a simple touch that can make me cool down wen im mad
words ? a simple promise that can make me love you forever
kisses ? forehead is the best

i guess thats it ?

anw , no one is perfect either ..

and yea .. be the opposite of me at tymes , i'll be the water wen your on fire , you'll be the water wen im on fire ..

follow this few steps .. AND DAMN YOUR MY DREAM GUY ! but , ubby .. ard 89% its in you ..anw , im happy for who you are :D STILL LOVE YOU IN ANY WAY !

nthing cn express hw much i love you ..

ABg ,ADK NGAN BABY ! korg tkmo nk sengeh2 baca nie eh ! hahaha ! Love you guys too !

Love , Shuryana

...

2009-05-26T10:36:00.000-07:00

Gosh , this few days .. to many things happen ..
wish i cld knw who to explain ..
been crying over too many things ..
trying not to show my tears to anyone ..
and yet everynight .. haishh..

mum almost caught me crying in my room ..
luckly i was holding my pillow , to cover my face ..
wanted to strt drinking again .. so that i can forget everything ..

parents , they do help us at tyme , and yet SUCKS too ..
been helping them alot by money ..
and yet , now ..
get nting in return ..
guess they used to it ..

shld i change myself ?
my life ?
wish cld be someone cheerfull and nting to be stress abt ..

and yea , its true .. i strted praying actually ..
and yet god gave me more probs to face ..

gtg ..

C.I.N.T.A

2009-05-21T14:14:00.000-07:00

cinta bagaikan air laut yang mengisi sebagian isi bumi…
memberi banyak kehidupan..membuat orang ingin tahu..
dan tiap orang pasti mengalami cinta..
cinta itu keikhlasan..cinta itu kemauan..cinta itu saling mengerti..
cinta itu indah jika kita bisa menempatkannya pada tempat terbaik dalam hati..
jadikan cinta itu indah dihatimu..karena cinta bisa seindah yang kau mau

amcm ?
poem kepe yana ! LOLS

ROKOK ! ROKOK ! ROKOK !

2009-05-21T09:34:00.000-07:00

Its was one of the best day i had wif my little cuzzi today ..
baby wanted to withdraw her money from her bank .. so me n sis acompany her ..
and yeah .. she bought a new floppers .. PINKY ! LOLS ! it looks good on her ..
(FUCK) ! ngah happy2 type mak aku baru msg ! ROKOK ! ROKOK ! ROKOK ! ORG TAU LA BILA NK STOP ! KIMAK !

KN! DA ILANG MOOD ! ARRGGHHHHH !!!!!!!!! KIMAK ! KALAU DA IRRATATING SNGT , I WONT STOP SIA ! AKU TAMBAH KN LAGI !

2009-05-19T06:09:00.001-07:00

2009-05-19T02:21:00.000-07:00

25.o2.2009
the day things strted to change

for that someone whom i put all my love & trust .

he was one of a kind

degil , sensitive , ego , negative thinking , pemalas

but above all those he's

loving , manja , protective , active , intelligent

there so much more about him

to me .. behide every beautiful girl there this guy ..

whom an idiot who failed to show his feelings for her ..

who wld always make her cry over stupid things ..

and this idoit guy is the one who show her the right path ..

who gave her a better life to live .. who make her smile ..

everyone might made a mistake , and they shld learn from it ..

but , its you whom have to make a decision to forgive n forget to make things better ..

Do i deserve a second chance ?

Im sorry for wad i did before

things happen

if i can , i wld wanna remove everthing from my past

and strt a new ..

but i cnt ..

what can i do to make things better ?

if there smting i can do bout it ..

i will do it ..

for the sake of us

EXPRESSIONS OF LOVE

2009-05-15T23:08:00.000-07:00

You can never find the perfect person I've been down that road before,

Hoping and waiting for that SOMEONE To sweep me from the floor

And when he walks pass you, your heart jumps It feels like its hit the floor

And when he touches you it's like an angels touch You've never felt before

His kisses are nice, his hugs are great, and he makes you smile a lot

You look at him, smile and think, His smile is so phenomenal, his smile you'll now embrace

You wish he could just stay forever

the feeling is so sweet

you'll never want to leave him, he makes you feel complete.

He was the one who helped you through the worst times in your life

And somehow you knew that he was the one, the true love of your life.

p.s : Baby , I Love You More Than You Do :D